My amazingly awesome friend Lilli spoke 4 words of truth to me last week + I can't get them out of my head: you're cannibalizing your blog. She was talking about Facebook + how I use my status updates as a writing outlet. I love to write. Most of the time, I think what I write is fairly entertaining.
But here's the thing:
There is not a single, solitary cell in my entire body that believes anyone really cares what I have to say.
So I tend to not write. I tend to hide away, trying not to annoy anyone by talking too much (that's another topic altogether). Doubt + self-consciousness + embarrassment + well, doubt mostly...they overwhelm me + I check out. For this reason, I have a tremendous problem with consistency on this blog.
But there's this other thing. I can't not write. I can't not talk. It's just who God created me to be, + I'm fairly certain He desires for me to not shy away from the me He created.
So who knows if I'll be able to maintain anything consistent. My kids don't seem to particularly enjoy letting me have any me time. But I do know that I'm going to write anyway. Even if it's only a couple sentences. And I hope you'll enjoy the journey, even if it's a little different than what you originally signed up for.
I love you all and THANK YOU so much for reading!